Portion Control

I did really well at dinner tonight. I ate a grilled chicken and veggies dish at the Chinese restaurant. I drank some hot tea and lots of water. My willpower was good, until they brought out the cake and a piece landed in front of me. I was going to deny myself the pleasure, but it was a sliver, which I'm glad they were at least thinking of me in that respect. So...yes..I ate it!! I don't feel bad for it as I know tomorrow I'm going to be extra good. Nobody is perfect when it comes to health and fitness, but as long as we learn and grow from what we've done then that's good. Plus, I don't like to deny myself something in fear of dying to eat it the next day, so if I really do want a piece of cake or whatever junk it is I allow myself a small portion of it - very small portion!

I did my Abs 10 class tonight, which is a Turbo Fire product by Chalene Johnson. It can be ordered here if anyone is interested. It's an amazing workout video! I can't even say it enough the wonderful impression Chalene has placed of herself in these videos. She's such a wonderful motivator. She will make anyone feel like they can do anything.

I look forward to tomorrow. It's my first day with a new preschool class. I love the little tykes! They are so much fun and say the darnedest things! I'm going to make sure to pack myself a healthy lunch too. I'll make up a salad then toss in a chopped up banana on the side for a snack. I keep water with me at work to drink throughout my day. The kids keep me so busy that I forget about food for the few hours I am there.

Willpower - Do Not Fail Me Now

Today is my husband's birthday! Of course, his family wants to go to Chinese then come back to their place for cake. Oh, how I cringe!! Not am I going to have not one crutch placed in front of me, but two. The Chinese I can manage. I can stick with soup or find an all vegetable meal, but cake..*headdesk* Why can't people have a nice array of fruit for special occasions? That's what I'm going to tell them all I want for my birthday - a bowl of fruit!

Speaking of willpower, my husband went shopping Friday at Sam's Club. I can't send the man shopping. As I have said before he is a twig and eats anything he wants! Well, he returns with one of those big tubs of chocolate donuts. I could have killed him! Why did he need to buy that junk and set it on the counter for me to ogle over? So, I told him he is no longer allowed to buy that. It is far too tempting for me. I don't need someone helping me with my temptations. I need help alleviating them.

Well, that was my complaint for the day. It is his birthday, so I won't be too mad at him for bringing junk in the house, but next time it's going to be war!

The truth about dieting

For some of those that might not understand us yo-yo dieters, I come to tell you that it's a hard thing for us to give up food. There are many reasons that trail behind eating things that we really shouldn't be eating. It's an array of reasons that could be the culprit. Anywhere from health to psychological to no control.

The biggest thing that is hard for me as I try to shed weight I have kept on since my pregnancy is when I am told I have no willpower. If I didn't have willpower I would have never quit smoking some years ago and gave up pop during my pregnancy for fear of what caffeine might do to the baby growing inside of me. I'm tired of that line, and I don't believe the people that say it to me realize how bad that can make me feel.

Yes, I love food. Yes, I have not shed the baby weight. Yes, I get depressed during the winter months with no sun. It's me. I have not changed in thirty years. I don't think I'll change now.

I do know they think they are helping me, but I've asked them to please stop saying that. It's a constant battle with myself each day, let alone you degrading my efforts and telling me where I am failing at.