Loss and Sense of Grief

This is probably one of the most difficult posts I've had to write, but I went to the doctor on Monday to find out the baby's heart had stopped beating. It went by too fast. The contractions began that very night. I cannot put into words how I really feel right now, but I did find a poem that seemed to sum it all up for me.

I Did Not Expect This
© Carola
This is natural, they say
It is all for the best
I cannot move past this heartache
This pain in my chest

Those days were surreal
Did this truly just occur
Happiness turned to sorrow
My life now a blur

This is natural, they say
I knew I was going to lose you
The most difficult emotion
There was nothing I could do

I am given no explanation
This is natural, they say
Were you pink or were you blue
My complexion is now grey

Trying to move on
A forward step everyday
I will always remember you
This is natural, they say